My GOTHIC DREAMSCAPE~ ت

i've given up being sad to start my life on a sweeter note ^~^

Friday, January 16, 2009

omg... ive been so busy these past few days i didnt post for so long. *guilty*
school's been very hectic(plus boring) and work has just been so stressful and demoralising. T.T plus my first practicum is starting soon too. oh my.... i can hardly find time for myself much less sleep. =.=
i haz become a pandaaa! O-O

btw... i found out a new cafe called jackie chan cafe at international plaza where the second branch of my sch is when i went there for class. omg! their sandwiches are good can! and also cheap too! lol.^^ and... and.... there is an awefully cute girl working there. *blushes*
i went there to buy a chicken sandwich today. first time buying something actually. was abit paiseh cos i was alone and guess what?!!! she actually talked to me!
it went something like "its been awhile since you came here. =)" and i was like "!!! yea... cos my classes are usually at tt" she gave me a blank look so i said "the opposite building" and she still didnt understand i think. >.<
then i was flipping through my practicum booklet(i went to the sch's second branch to get it) she asked me "so what are you studying?" i forgot what stupid reply i mumbled back that she ask "oh so you're a teacher?" i 'intelligently' replied "sort of..." =A=... like wtf is wrong with me? i felt so lost for words and hot in the face. =.='''
then there was a pause... i tried to talk more before i had no excuse to stay and chat anymore(i saw my sandwich was almost done). asked her "so you work here everyday? cos i see you here everytime i come here." she was like "yea... but saturday and sunday we're closed." and i stupidly said something dumb again? like "oh... i dont know bout that cos i only come around here from monday to friday." like =A=....
then i had to go so i said thanks while collecting my sandwich. i forgot if she said thanks or no problem. lol!
this incident. i was just wondering... how she know that i never go there a long time? she must have like so many diff customers everyday. yet she remembers me when i never bought from her before only company my frens. liko O_O.....
but strangely, i wanna get to know her. ^~^ but ish too shy and i guess i just screw up any opportunity with my 'intelligent' choice of words.
sigh... i guess ill have to try harder not to look weird ba. heehee...^^
gambatte ne! XD

written @Friday, January 16, 2009 -Timeless Dreams-

~lake abyss of shattered dreams~

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

i can feel myself drifting back slowly,
into the world of depression and sorrow.
willow trees sprout out from the lake of tears.

im on a rowboat, adrift,
on the lake of sadness.
at the mercy of the water ripples,
gently rocking me further into the abyss of darkness.

what is this peacefully painful place?
phantoms of water so deep, my reflection does not show.
colbalt blue to black,
the taste of a million unfulfilled dreams.

the wind moanfully blows a sad melancholy tune.
as the willow leaves drifts across the lake like a thousand shed tears.
i slowly turn to the baleful moon,
and sing a tale of shattered dreams

lovera

written @Wednesday, January 07, 2009 -Timeless Dreams-

fall into perspective

Monday, January 5, 2009

my cute kaito kun doing the caramelldansen and making a heart with his fingers.^^ had fun visiting him that day. he was like "mom, a heart for you!(makes heart with fingers)" i was like: awwww....^^.

my darling... i cant wait to take you home. be paitient, mommy will get you real soon kay? T~T

kaito: "ok, i love you mommy.^^"

me: TTATT.....

yesterday... was great.^^ went out with wendy. lol. was supposed to meet her at 8.40 but ended up waking at like 9.40(sorry once more >.<). its all because i stayed up to MSC my girl and i fell asleep waiting for it to dry. lol. we ended up almost going out the entire day thou we just planned on meeting for breakfast. hahaix! was at parkway then moved on to suntec. talked alot on our lives, our loves and also emo-ed abit now and then. lol.^^ funny, i never thought we could have gone out so normal like before. always thought it was awkward. but somehow the quiet was strangely peaceful-like. that really lifted my spirits frm yesterday la(thanks so much dear friend^^). thou i havent finish my 1000word assignment, it was pushed far frm my mind.

the second half was like super great too. lol. i didnt know this day would turn out this awesome, but it did. XD finally talked to her on msn... dunno why seem so close again. but somehow i dont want to believe it for fear that if i dream, it will all come crashing down. she sorta asked me out... i guess. i dont want to believe this too. haiz... maybe what she ment by hanging out is like "meet you at the event!". nothing more than that T-T. maybe im the one dreaming. haiz...

written @Monday, January 05, 2009 -Timeless Dreams-

whispers of unrequitted love

Sunday, January 4, 2009

I wish..
to fall asleep in your arms,
to have you around at the start of each day,

with the ceaseless ticking of the clock,
time seems to pass so slowly.
with every hour, with every day,
the yearning in my heart grows stronger
but you are never there.

I wait..
silently,
at the corner of your heart,
ready to catch your fall.

when your heart breaks,
so does mine.
as i watched a countless number of your rise and fall,
feels like centuries long.
the wait of time immemorable.
dont you hear my call?

So tell me,
when will this end?
This mysterious unrequitted love.

by lovera and tskie

written @Sunday, January 04, 2009 -Timeless Dreams-

Sacrament Of Wilderness

Friday, January 2, 2009

Naked in midwinter magic
Lies an angel in the snow
The frozen figure crossed by tracks of wolves
An encounter symbolic yet truthful
With a hungry choir of wolves
An agreement immemorial to be born

Dulcet elvenharps from a dryad forest
Accompany all charming tunes
Of a sacrament by a campfire
A promise between the tameless
And the one with a tool
Tonight the journey from a cave begins

I want to hunt with the tameless heart
I want to learn the wisdom of mountains afar
We will honor the angel in the snow
We will make the streams for our children flow

Wrapped in furs beneath the northern lights
From my cave I watch the land untamed
And wonder if some becoming season
Will make the angel melt in shame

I want to hunt with the tameless heart...

written @Friday, January 02, 2009 -Timeless Dreams-

HAPPIE NEW YEAR EVERYONEEEEE!!!!!!! ^~^

Thursday, January 1, 2009

me ish happie thanks to someone.^^ actually was pretty down even thou today was supposed to be a happy day for me. had planned to go for countdown with frens and all. told my BF earlier but when i was there le, he gave me crap asking me to go back clarke quay to meet him. hello?!, im like at freaking vivo! and its super crowded how to get out?! so freaking unreasonable can? T^T and i did try countless of times to call and msg you. my fucking phone really dont have a freaking connection, and i dont fucking know why ok?! god... you almost made my start of the new year miserable. sometimes i find it funny why we are even together. dont you think we're just too different? we might love each other but lawl.... we cant even communicate like normal frens let alot not quarrel or disagree at every convo we have. funneh rite? i think so too. XD went home alittle down..... but am better now thanks to someone who brighten me up. thank you! *hugs* i guess life wont start to sux so much anymore................. ^~^

written @Thursday, January 01, 2009 -Timeless Dreams-